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About this Blog
Why Nankurunaisa?My brother would always ask me why my blog is named "nankurunaisa". So I wondered if other people would also like to know why I named it like this.
First of all, I got the saying "nankurunaisa" from my favorite anime series Blood+. The word "nankurunaisa" means that everything will be okay. I particularly chose it to be the title of my blog cause I want to be reminded whenever I blog about my not-so-good experiences that despite every trial/obstacles, everything will be okay. Thus, Nankurunaisa! <3
Monday, December 31, 2007
Lalala Teppei
Lalala Teppei
We watched "Sakal Sakali, Saklolo" a while ago at ATC. It was nice. The movie was funny but I personally think that the previous one was funnier.I'm quite addicted (not like how I was addicted to Jae Joong) to Gokusen 2 right now. well, it's mainly because Koike Teppei's there. Lol. wahaha. He's a good actor with the roles that he portrayed. Another similar series is Dragon Zakura which is also about delinquent students, teppei's one too.
Anyway...I hope I can buy DVD of Gokusen 2 and Dragon Zakura tomorrow..hehehe...well, that's all..
ADVANCED HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Christmas Food Trip
Christmas Food Trip
The christmas party yesterday was loads of fun. It was simple but fun.Our relatives went to our house by 6-7 pm I think. The program started and the emcees were my younger cousin, my nephew and my godchild. At first we had to persuade them to become the emcee since they were "shy". But after a while, they agreed.
My nephew sang as an intermission number. He sang "Greatest love of all" I think and then my godchild recited a poem. After that we ate. Lol.
THe food was AWESOME! REally, we had potato salad, lengua, mom's pasta, ham, leche flan, ice cream, brownies, maki! wahehe..the food was really yummy. For proof, here are the pictures:
I even took lessons from my cousin on how to make Maki. Lol. It was fun. she left me some wrapper so that I could make one when I can. Here are more pictures! heheh.
And lastly, a mouth watering treat! Fudge brownies with cookies and cream ice cream! yum! wahaha. This treat is so yummy that you would forget about dieting! lol.
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Complete
Complete
Complete (kəm-plēt')
adj., -plet·er, -plet·est.SYNONYMS complete, close, end, finish, conclude, terminate.
- Having all necessary or normal parts, components, or steps; entire: a complete meal
Life for me wasn't complete...until today.
Today surely is a Happy Christmas for me. I've never experienced this much happiness 'till now. I feel so...complete.
we went to mass a while ago (9 pm). I was surprised that the whole church was full of people. Well, now that I think of it more, it doesn't seem so surprising anymore. Lol. The church was really crowded that we didn't have seats. I had a seat but I gave it to someone older than me. Weird thing though, it felt nice when I offered the woman my seat.
We had our media noche (not sure if it's the correct term) by 11 something. The food was great. Potato Salad, Pasta and Ham. Thank you Lord for the delicious meal. :) ;)
After our meal, the phone rang. It was my sister. She greeted us merry Christmas and then let us talk...to my dad.
To become happy, we must be complete.
I know that it's not possible for my family to reconcile and go back to what we had before, but I'm happy to know that, things are progressing. At least, we can talk to each other now.
He asked me how I was. I said that I was okay. I was teary eyed when I talked to him. Imagine, for 5 years that we had no connection, it was changed on Christmas eve. I felt really happy. He is, my dad after all.
There comes a point in our life that we may feel complete.
For me, that time is now. I feel so happy and complete. This is by far, the best Christmas I have ever had. Thank You Lord. I really appreciate it. :)
P.s.
I saw someone from church who looks like Jae Joong! Y__________Y
I wanted to stare but it would be rude. lol.
Monday, December 24, 2007
Merry Christmas Everyone!
Merry Christmas Everyone!
Haha, I'm finally over that acceptance stage. I feel okay now. REally okay. I just hope that when we go back on January 7, I would still be okay. Wahaha. Anyway.We completed the "simbang gabi" yesterday. We went to church with my cousin and aunt so we weren't able to walk.
Our travelogue is finally over. We went to Caleruega, Mushroom Burger and Picnic Grove ( our group). It was really fun and at the same time tiring. It kind of surprised me that no one argued, (well, just a small argument that's all.) but I'm also thankful that no one did.
Anyway, I have nothing more to say but,
Merry Christmas Everyone!
Friday, December 21, 2007
Motorola V551 and a new haircut
Motorola V551 and a new haircut
Haha, I got a new phone today. It's a Motorola V551. It's not as cool as the razr phones but it's good enough for me. It's flip top. lol. I lurve flip top phones. WAhaha..
Tomorrow's our travelogue. We're going to tagaytay. I'm really excited cause it's my first time to go to a place like tagaytay with my classmates. I do hope it'll be fun. I need something to take my mind away from stuff...you know what I mean right?
I think I'm okay now. Well, at least, compared to yesterday, I'm able to smile already. I mean really smile. Anyway..
I went to the salon too. (lol, I did a lot of things today didn't I?) My hair's a lot shorter compared to what it was like before. But it's cool, I think. I like it.
Weird thing while I was having my hair cut, I was thinking that along with the hair that was about to be cut would be what I feel for tore. I guess I really have to forget about this silly infatuation in order for me to be happy. Well, good luck to me though.
P.S.
I hope I can wake up early tomorrow.
P.P.S.
I saw a cute guy a while ago. Lol.
and here I was thinking that I would have a hard time moving on.
wahaha. just kidding.
but I did see a cute guy.
Let Go and Let God
Let Go and Let God
Our christmas party was held yesterday. It's was okay. Not fun but not boring either. Just okay. The food was good. They served brooklyn (i don't know the spelling) pizza, KFC chicken, palabok and warm softdrinks (lol.) We did the usual thing, eat, exchange gifts and you know, stuff you do at a christmas party. AFter that I went home, with Fiona and Bea, to get ready for the Christmas Dance.The dance was okay. People were having fun and all. It was just that...I didn't have the Christmas spirit to enjoy it. One band from our school played. I don't know what song since the sound system wasn't clear. Anyway, Straganoff played too. (It's the band that won last year in the battle of the bands. alumni people.) Then after that, they played disco(err?) music.
I saw tore last night. He asked my classmate to dance twice. He got rejected twice. Poor him :(. I really felt bad for him, seriously, even though he's the reason why I didn't enjoy the party. I tried not to show everyone that I was sad about it. I laughed but deep inside, I know that I was not happy. When I got home, that's when I released all the emotions bottled inside. I cried. I guess...it was meant to be like that.
Right now I'm okay, I think. I kind of regretted going to the party. I should've gone to the "simbang gabi" mass. I would've been happier.
Anyway, like what they say right?
Let Go and Let God.
P.S.
I don't think I'm on that acceptance stage yet. But I'll try.
Thursday, December 20, 2007
A Christmas Party with no Christmas Spirit
A Christmas Party with no Christmas Spirit
By now you should have noticed that I'm sad. I'm not going to explain it further since I think that I might lose my mind. So anyway.We'll be having our xmas party later and xmas dance. I don't feel like going cause of this stupid depression. But since I paid for it, I have no other choice but to go. ABout the xmas dance on the other hand, I'm having doubts about it already. I dunno, I feel like I'm just going to sit on the bleachers all night long and stare at the people dancing sweetly. eck.
If my friends would go, then I would.
If not, then I'm not going.
3 stages of letting go and how to deal with it.
3 stages of letting go and how to deal with it.
Denial -- check
First, we think that this is not really happening, that we are just having a nightmare or a bad dream. We deny the fact that we are really experiencing this and that we come up with different explanations as to why it happened. We always think that.."maybe it's just like this.." or "maybe it's just like that..". WE think of all the possibilities so that we would be assured that IT is really not happening.
Solution:
Stop in front of the mirror and say to yourself...
"This is really happening. Don't be sad. Don't cry. It's not the end of the world."
Or talk to yourself and say...
"Don't worry, things will be better."
And of course, don't forget to..
Pray.
Solution:
Stop in front of the mirror and say to yourself...
"This is really happening. Don't be sad. Don't cry. It's not the end of the world."
Or talk to yourself and say...
"Don't worry, things will be better."
And of course, don't forget to..
Pray.
Depression -- check
This time, we already begin to realize that we can't deny it anymore. We already know that something IS really happening and that we can't take it. We feel really lonely by this time and think that there's something wrong with us. We may ask ourselves, "what's wrong with me?" or "what did I do?" even though everyone is telling us that nothing is wrong and that it'll be all right.
Sometimes, during this stage, we tend to release our annoyance or irritation to the people around us. We tend to get irritated easily and feel like breaking down any moment but we can't.
During this stage, we might not be able to concentrate on the things we do. Every idle moment would make us think about what happened. We might even try things like self-mutilation because of depression. This stage is really dangerous for some who are not..."emotionally stable" and don't know how to handle situations like this.
Solution:
The only possible solution for this is to talk to someone you know that can help you. Probably, someone who gives you good advice on things, it may be a friend or a family member or even a teacher. Just make sure that you keep yourself away from sharp objects during this stage.
Sometimes, during this stage, we tend to release our annoyance or irritation to the people around us. We tend to get irritated easily and feel like breaking down any moment but we can't.
During this stage, we might not be able to concentrate on the things we do. Every idle moment would make us think about what happened. We might even try things like self-mutilation because of depression. This stage is really dangerous for some who are not..."emotionally stable" and don't know how to handle situations like this.
Solution:
The only possible solution for this is to talk to someone you know that can help you. Probably, someone who gives you good advice on things, it may be a friend or a family member or even a teacher. Just make sure that you keep yourself away from sharp objects during this stage.
Acceptance -- check?
During this time, we might cry a lot cause we're beginning to finally accept that IT really happened. We have finally thought things through and realized that there's nothing we can do about it anymore.
Solution:
The best thing to do here is cry. We should not bottle our feelings inside cause when we can't take it anymore, we'll have major emotional breakdown and it'll be more painful that it was before.
Again, I suggest that you spend time with your family or friends and of course, pray.
sometimes we experience things in order to grow.
sometimes we need to get hurt in order to get better.
sometimes we don't get what we really want.
and sometimes, pain becomes the best medicine in order for us to heal.
Solution:
The best thing to do here is cry. We should not bottle our feelings inside cause when we can't take it anymore, we'll have major emotional breakdown and it'll be more painful that it was before.
Again, I suggest that you spend time with your family or friends and of course, pray.
-End-
sometimes we experience things in order to grow.
sometimes we need to get hurt in order to get better.
sometimes we don't get what we really want.
and sometimes, pain becomes the best medicine in order for us to heal.
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Mom's Back
Mom's Back
Lol. Okay, so I was supposed to write this entry yesterday but it was too late to use the net. Anyway.My mom was supposed to arrive 6 am in the morning but due to some delay, (A day in fact!) she got home by 11:30 in the evening. So the usual things happened, we opened the boxes and our relatives waited for their "pasalubongs". It was funny cause my grandma was so forgetful that she forgot that she had already received stuffs from our relatives in USA.
So Anyway...we had this little conference when everybody went home already. actually, she mentioned it to me already a few days before, the big announcement I mean.
So her big announcement was that...she was planning on getting married again. Of course, It was okay for me and my brother as long as the guy's nice and she's really happy. Then she discussed with us the possibility of us moving when I graduate from High School. My brother would stay since he has to finish college first here then take masters there. That is, if plans were to push through.
Odd thing though today, it was like an after shock, I suddenly felt the sadness I was supposed to feel last night. I mean, okay I would like to go to America too since it's a big opportunity but I can't help but be sad cause...I've been here for my whole life and what? I'm gonna leave? It's really sad. I even cried in school when I said it to my friends.
Anyway, I'm over that and I've finally thought about it . It's quite cool too you know, to go to America I mean.
P.S.
We had a try out for basketball yesterday. Imagine, I played ball while wearing skirt and school shoes. I was lucky that no damage was done. :D
Saturday, December 1, 2007
busy day and punky moods
busy day and punky moods
today was so busy for me. we had a practice for our play here at my place so can you imagine more than 10 people staying here? lol.everyone was busy doing this and that. we, the props people, are almost done with what we're tasked to do. I just hope that when we assign the props, there'd be no problems or whatever. in the end, the play still needs adjustments. I kind of got pissed off by the fact that some of my 'mates were so calm about this and yet the play is on monday already. Pff.
anyway, i finally got punkymoods here in my site. I've been dying to have one ever since I saw it in one of my fellow teentalker's site. LOL. At least, I have something to be happy about today.
Nikon d300
New Phone
