March 3, 1992. Seventeen. Pisces. Incoming Freshman at San Beda College Alabang :]. Catholic. Filipino. Dedicated Setonian. Green and blue fanatic. Sleepaholic. Insomniac-ish (meaning, not completely). Photoshop lover. Favorite numbers are 3 and 9. Sarcastic. Shy. Introvert. Extrovert. Imaginative. Creative. Music Freak. Religious. Kdrama and Jdrama lover. Certified David Cook supporter. Panic! at the disco fanatic. Harry Potter addict. Anime addict. Cookies and Cream and Double Dutch lover. Loves Stewie Griffin, Draco Malfoy, Cedric Diggory, Skandar Keynes, Ben Barnes, William Moseley, OHSHC, Yamapi, Kim Jae Joong, her family, her friends, herself and most of all, God.

Alias:

• eljay123
• ayumi09
• angelayumi09
• peppermint03

...and a whole lot more.

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About this Blog

Why Nankurunaisa?

My brother would always ask me why my blog is named "nankurunaisa". So I wondered if other people would also like to know why I named it like this.

First of all, I got the saying "nankurunaisa" from my favorite anime series Blood+. The word "nankurunaisa" means that everything will be okay. I particularly chose it to be the title of my blog cause I want to be reminded whenever I blog about my not-so-good experiences that despite every trial/obstacles, everything will be okay. Thus, Nankurunaisa! <3

Sunday, September 30, 2007
Coffee Prince is <3

Coffee Prince Mania

I was so hooked with Coffee Prince yesterday that I wasn't able to study much. The series is really nice and it's a must-watch for all those who are fond of romantic comedy movies. Okay so you might all wonder, what is coffee prince really all about?

Coffee Prince

Info:

Title: Coffee Prince|The 1st shop of Coffee Prince
Genre: Romance, Comedy
Episodes: 17 plus 1 special episode

Synopsis:

Basically, the drama series is about Go Eun Chan, a girl who is pretending to be a boy, in order for her to keep her job at the "Coffee Prince" shop. At first she was just worrying about people finding out what her gender really is, but soon, her problems become bigger when she starts to fall for Manager Choi Han Kyul.

Cast

Yoon Eun Hye as Go Eun Chan



Gong Yoo as Choi Han Kyul



Lee Sun Gyun as Choi Han Sung



Chae Jung Ahn as Han Yoo Joo

You can watch and download the series in this site:
Watch Online - with English Subs

For those who wants to download the series:

The videos are from Veoh/Megaupload so I suggest that you download first Veoh Tv or Mega upload player.

Coffee Prince Soundtrack:

Saturday, September 29, 2007
Mission Accomplished

Finally, I was able to choose a blogskin that would actually fit my blog.

Anyway, I'm done downloading 1-9 of Coffee prince. Though, I'm still lacking 9.2, 8.2 and from 10 -17. I'm really excited already to watch the whole series. I really recommend it since it's really funny and the characters are really cute.

Anyway, gotta go now, I have to study for my exams next week.

P.S.

I hope I pass!

Friday, September 28, 2007
Credits may soon roll away..

I'm so pissed with the skins I found in blogskins right now. I'm trying to change my template but all of the skins that I have downloaded are either shitty or not working well. I have been doing this since yesterday and now, there's still no progress.

Anyway, I'm addicted to "Coffee Prince" right now. It's about a girl who was mistaken for a boy and is now stuck in between the web of lies. Anyway, it's a pretty cool story. The leading man's hot too. LOL...XD. here are some pics (NOTE: View now, drool later. XD. Gong Yoo is so hot!)

I mean really, he's so hot, hotter than Joseph Fiennes! Anyway, the person in front of my prince Gong Yoo is actually Yoon Eun Hye from Princess hours. Dang, she really looks like a guy there doesn't she? Anyway, she's so adorable in the story and I prefer if she keep her haircut like that. :D

Nothing much happened in school today. We had a lot of discussion to do since in some subjects, we are already rushing stuffs. NExt week's our exams..Crap! Cram mode? nah, I'm actually gonna study this one. After all, I kind of get all the lessons...well Math is an exeption of course...but actually, there are some things in that subject that I actually understand.

Anyway, I have to go do stuffs. Probably fix my notes or whatever shit. I'll write tomorrow when I have time.

P.S.

I dedicate this song to my friend. LOL XD.

What you know bout HER
What you what you know bout HER
What you know bout HER
What you what you know

They say HER lip gloss is cool
HER lip gloss be poppin.

P.P.S.

Jane Eyre (the movie) is so cool!

"Necessity compels me to make use of you." - Mr. Rochester.

Thursday, September 27, 2007
My heart

Tuesday, September 25, 2007
So, is this really goodbye?

Note: I got this somewhere..I forgot where. Anyway, enjoy reading.

I gave you my heart, I gave you my soul, and I gave to you all the love that I hold within me. I gave you my respect and understanding. I gave you my compassion and my passion; I gave you faithfulness. I gave you my laughter; I opened my heart and let you know my fears and insecurities, my strengths and weaknesses.

I gave you my encouragement and my belief in you. I gave you my honesty and trust. If I could love you forever, that wouldn't be long enough. I shared with you my tears; I gave you my arms with which to hold you when you were feeling down. All these things I gave to you freely and willingly, because of my love for you, and they shall always remain yours.

But I know now that I have to forget about you, because of the way you affect my everyday life. I know that I have to quit hoping that I will ever get to hold or kiss you again. I don't want to wake up anymore, in the middle of the night, thinking about you and not being able to get back to sleep.

I don't want that feeling anymore, that I get in my heart, from seeing you without me. I need to fill that hole in my soul that I carry with me, from losing you, but I know that it will never go away.

I need to know what it takes for me not to see your face everyday, even when you're not around, I still see you as if your standing right next to me. My heart remains lifeless at the thought of losing your smile, the sound of your laughter, your tears, and the compassion that lies in your heart.

You see, I finally learned what real love is, and that real love was you. If you ever find that ability to love and care for someone that much, where each waking day is better than the previous one, and no matter what happens or what your station in life is, be it rich or poor, that nothing can change your heart, because you have each other's hearts, then shall you truly know where real strength and love come from.

I can't take back what's in my heart or all the feelings that go with it, or for the fact that everything I was or was capable of becoming, I gave to you and leave with you. Real love is a rare and wonderful thing, and as with most rare things, very hard to hang on to.

It's about wanting to hold and kiss each other every day. It's about saying "I love you" everyday. It's not just saying the words; it's when you cradle that person's face in your hands and look them in the eyes and say to them "no, I really mean it, I truly love you".

It's about sitting with each other and not having to speak a word, because two hearts have become one. It's knowing that the worst thing about dying would be missing you and not being able to see you anymore. It's about understanding and keeping the passion alive, so that every day is like the very first tme you gave your heart and soul to that one person.

It's knowing that you listen to your heart and follow it, because you know that there is nothing stronger or more powerful than the heart. It can bring you to heights unimaginable, or it can slam you so hard that you think even living isn't important anymore. It's about believing that you don't give up on real love, because it's such a hard thing to keep and it's not worth losing. It's knowing that all the trials and tribulations, all of it, everything, just makes the both of you stronger.

I write these feelings and words down in the hopes of seeing that it puts the feeling of real love in your heart; to know what an amazing feeling it is and how free it makes you feel. It's like being able to fly without actually leaving the ground; not many people ever get to feel that. I know in my heart that I lost part of me because the hurting never goes away; it will always be there but it helps to make me a stronger person in some ways.

So if you ever find real love, keep it in your heart and lock it away and keep it there for eternity and beyond. Don't be afraid to pass it on to other people, because it really is the one real and true thing that we have in our lives.

Live long, hard, and forever. [end]

We all live in a world where we always have to say goodbye once in a while. We try to pretend that it's not yet the end and we hold on to those who are really special to us, not wanting to let gol; but the more we hold on, the more they want to break free. 

Saying goodbye is probably the hardest thing to do. Sure we say our goodbyes everytime we leave, but it doesn't really mean forever since we are sure that there's still a tomorrow where we have to say hello again. True goodbyes last for a lifetime, or maybe more. It's a decision we have to think about lots of times before we do it or else we might have regrets.

To say goodbye is like having a nightmare repeatedly every night, but the difference is, once you say goodbye to someone, there's no turning back. There's no "waking up from the bad dream" scenario wherein you can breathe in a sigh thinking that, "whoa, it was just a dream". Saying goodbye is reality. It's not something you can just erase or forget.

I don't want to reach the point wherein I have to say goodbye to you. I don't want to have regrets about this but you make it seem that YOU'RE that something that I should regret..

Friday, September 21, 2007
Mixed Emotions

The past few weeks have been really busy for me. We have loads of homework to do and projects to pass. It's a surprise that I haven't broken down yet. Anyway, I think I can manage. I hope.

If there's something to be happy about, it's the fact that we're given this work to write a short story. I really love writing that's why I'm so hyped about it. It's kind of a...passion I have yet to release.


Anyway, I was also addicted to Sims 2 so much since I finally have almost all of the expansion packs (i'm only missing open for business and bon voyage..that'll probably go in my wish list). The game is just...so addicting. I keep on making new characters for fun and downloading some houses and skins. Though the game's cool already, I do wish to have the remaining expansion packs =D.


I'm kind of...depressed today. I'm not sure yet. I have been feeling sadness ever since...well I saw something in school. I'm not gonna narrate about that anymore cause it just might ruin my mood again. It has something to do about my crush and well...whatever. I'm fearing something that I should not. It hurts more since I have no right to be sad about it. Maybe I hoped too much. Maybe I misinterpreted things too much. Maybe I should just...let go.

It was just a silly infatuation anyway.

I hope.

Friday, September 14, 2007
I'm on the edge

I'm breaking. I try to be strong but I can't seem to. I need my strength. I need my light. I have them beside me already and yet, there's still this depressing feeling inside of me that I can't get rid of. It's so painful. I feel so sad and yet I can't seem to find the reason why. I feel like going crazy. I want to get over this depression. I want to see the light again. I don't want to go back to that anymore. I'm tired of being in that state. I'm done with that.

I'm on the edge

A few more steps and I'm about to fall into an endless pit. I need someone to pull me back into safety. I need someone to guide me back to comfort. I need someone to offer me security. Someone who's gonna watch
over me as I become weak and help me to stand up when
my knees are too weak.

I need reason.

A reason to live further. A reason to be happy. A reason to enjoy life.

Life used to be pretty...until you came and made it beautiful.

I want to believe in that quote again. I want to be able to smile with real happiness.

...but then another came and life became horrible.

I don't want to wait for that to happen. I NEVER want it to happen. I don't wanna think that you're the one that is making me feel like this. You used to be an inspiration, but now, when I think of you, I feel like I'm slowly being destroyed. I don't want you to cause my down fall. But I can't help it. I guess...

...I just have to forget about you.

Thursday, September 13, 2007
Being good doesn't mean that you're not bad

Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Busy Day

Today's been very busy. We didn't have our ZL class in order to make way for the make up classes. Things started out pretty good today. It wasn't that hot and I was able to study a bit for Chemistry and I think I passed the test. Anyway, Geom was okay. I understand the lesson so far. I just hope that I would be able to remember when we have quizzes or something. TLE, we just did this transaction thing where we place the value received and value parted with stuff. Anyway, it was okay though I didn't get some of it, I'll get the hang of it some other time.

Lunch was fun. It was a total laughtrip. See, my friends and I stayed at the trellis that time and we were just talking and stuff when we saw a group of 4th year boys who have the, i dunno what haircut it's called, but we call it "semi kalbo" and then we were just laughing cause all of them in the group have the same haircut. I mean, did they plan it or something? They really look like the alien from tv named, "Kokey". Gawsh.

English period. We didn't have a quiz! Good thing cause I wasn't able to study much the day before ( remember I fixed this blog? haha). Anyway, we watched the spoof of Henry VIII by Simpsons and It's was soooo funny. Lol, seriously. Homer is just plain stupid. (which makes him more interesting XD). After that, we watched "Elizabeth". Basically it's about queen Elizabeth of England. Anyway, the story is about her life and the plots of other people to kill her. Anyway,

Joseph Fiennes is SO HOT. lol. (he's the one who's in Shakespeare in Love)

I mean, sure he was a jerk in the movie but...damn, when he dances with Elizabeth, it's soooo..
hot. hahaha. HEre's a picture if you don't know what he looks like..

Monday, September 10, 2007
It's Hot, My Neck Hurts, What else?

I partially hate this day. Why? Cause it's sooo hot at school since we have no A/C in each classroom. Bummer right? Students have already been complaining that the school
should have aircon but no, they insist that our school is known for having an open-classroom setting. It's actually not bad but during hot days like today, students would actually have a hard time concentrating.

Anyway. I saw my crush so many times today. Actually...about 3-4 times (not that I'm counting of course). We just had quizzes during the morning and uber long discussions in the afternoon. Good thing I didn't fall asleep in class though. Considering that it was really hot, oh boy, I'm thankful that I even survived.

Another bad thing about this day is that...My neck hurts. I dunno why. Maybe I slept on the wrong side (literally). It was kind of bearable in the morning but then when lunch came, it was more painful.

WEll, I gotta go. I have to study for tomorrow. WE have...3 quizzes all in all and I haven't started studying anything. Good luck to me though, I hope I pass.


P.S.

I finally finished designing my blog. Yey!

P.P.S.

Oh I almost forgot, our field trip's on October 10. Double yey!

Friday, September 7, 2007
Connection -><-

Well, this day has been awesome for me. not only did I see my crush during the assembly, but I was also THIS (- -) close to him during lunch period. I was so psyched about it that the aftershock didn't wear off until we had the next class. I mean, I see him everyday but to actually come so close to him was heaven all right. We even had eye-to-eye contact which really hyped up my mood.

Anyway, right now I'm trying to overcome this stupid writer's block. I dunno, I just wanna write something new. I miss posting updates in CC and I wanna start on my 4th story. The thing is, I have no inspiration. So much for that..

I kind of made a list, (well just right now) of what to do if you experience a writer's block. Hope it helps...

Thursday, September 6, 2007
Baby, I loved you

Today's somehow, I dunno, weird for me. I wasn't able to see RV in the morning. It rained that's why our usual
place wasn't available. Anyway.

Nothing much happened during the morning. It was actually boring so I won't elaborate on it much okay? Anyway, we checked this site, www.peteanswers.com during our club time. it was
kind of weird since it ACTUALLY answer the questions of my classmates. You see, they asked the middle name
of one of my classmates and it said it and it was correct. We were totally freaked out after that.

Anyway, next class, we had a discussion about love during one of our class. Well, we were actually analyzing this sonnet and then the topic went to love. (the sonnet spoke about it so we had to talk about it). Anyway, our teacher was asking us some questions about love according to the poem. We kept on saying that true love was when you accept each other's differences or look past the imperfections. But then she always said (our teacher by the way) that, "what if he sucks his toe while sleeping?" so we're like, ew, that's just gross. I mean, sucking your thumb is more acceptable but the toe?! Who the hell does that? We just had to stop the discussion since we had no time. But no worries, we're just gonna have to continue tomorrow.

WEll, right now I'm trying to make this peteranswers, answer my damn questions. I dunno, it really answers my friend's question and yet, why not mine? It really is pissing me off. Well, maybe I'll try a bit later, hope it works though.


P.S.

I love the song "Never be replaced" (the guy version.) it's soo cool.

Wednesday, September 5, 2007
POIS & PACT

We received the POIS and PACT test results today. I was kind of happy that the results turned out fine, well, at least for the course that I'm planning to take. At least, I know that I chose the right course. Anyway, heres' the results.

For the POIS (Survey about what jobs I'm interested in).

• Math, Physical Sciences and Tech - 415 (Moderate)


• Outdoor/Physical - 444 (Moderate)


• Social/Personal - 386 (Moderate)


• Business/Clerical - 327 (Low)


• Administrative - 347 (Low)


• Life and Health Sciences - 529 (Very Strong)


• Arts and Humanities - 576 (Very Strong)

And for the PACT results: (200 - lowest; 500 - moderate; 800 - highest)

This is the first part. (aptitude factor)

• Perceptual Speed - 513


• Verbal English - 600


• General Reasoning - 549


• Felixibility of Closure - 521


• Verbal Filipino - 474 (Wow, I suck in my own language.)


• Spatial Closure - 505


• Visualization - 574


• Perceptual Acuity - 545

and for the second part (educational program)

• services (average)


• agriculture (average)


• humanities and arts (low) [and yet in the POIS I had a VS rating.]


• Social sciences, Business, and Law (high)


• education (high)


• engineering (high)


• trades and craft (high)


• health and welfare (high)


• science (high)

For someone who actually didn't take the test seriously, the results were fine already. Anyway, nothing much happened today. We played softball, though I wasn't able to be a batter, and it was fun. I was actually getting the hang of it.

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