March 3, 1992. Seventeen. Pisces. Incoming Freshman at San Beda College Alabang :]. Catholic. Filipino. Dedicated Setonian. Green and blue fanatic. Sleepaholic. Insomniac-ish (meaning, not completely). Photoshop lover. Favorite numbers are 3 and 9. Sarcastic. Shy. Introvert. Extrovert. Imaginative. Creative. Music Freak. Religious. Kdrama and Jdrama lover. Certified David Cook supporter. Panic! at the disco fanatic. Harry Potter addict. Anime addict. Cookies and Cream and Double Dutch lover. Loves Stewie Griffin, Draco Malfoy, Cedric Diggory, Skandar Keynes, Ben Barnes, William Moseley, OHSHC, Yamapi, Kim Jae Joong, her family, her friends, herself and most of all, God.

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About this Blog

Why Nankurunaisa?

My brother would always ask me why my blog is named "nankurunaisa". So I wondered if other people would also like to know why I named it like this.

First of all, I got the saying "nankurunaisa" from my favorite anime series Blood+. The word "nankurunaisa" means that everything will be okay. I particularly chose it to be the title of my blog cause I want to be reminded whenever I blog about my not-so-good experiences that despite every trial/obstacles, everything will be okay. Thus, Nankurunaisa! <3

Monday, November 26, 2007
Sensitivity

Nothing much happened in the morning. We just had a technical rehearsal for our play and it sucked really bad. No offense to our class but that wasn't the best we could do, at least, that's what I know.

CCF time, our teacher returned our journal. I wasn't able to receive mine cause he wasn't done checking it yet. I borrowed my friend's journal since I saw this really long comment so I was curious about it. When I read it, I felt like I wanted to cry.

I thought I was sensitive enough to know what's wrong with my friends. I thought I knew things about my friends. But I was wrong. I didn't even know ANYTHING.

It turned out, my friend has a problem with her family. I felt really sad cause I didn't even know anything about it and yet my classmate knows about it. Wow, some friend I am. It made me think then, was I not a good friend for not knowing? I realized by then that I wasn't giving much time to think about my friends. I was too busy thinking about what's happening in my life that I didn't care about what's going on with my friend's life. I felt really bad.

Me: Kelan pa nangyari to?
Her: Tagal narin.
Me: bakit di mo sinabi sakin? :'(
Her: eh parati mo naman siya kasama eh. hindi kita makausap.
Me: ...sorry...

I cried during dismissal time. I can't believe that I didn't have time for my friend anymore. :'( And to think that I thought my problems were hard enough...it was nothing compared to what she was going through.

I admire her for being strong. I really do. She was able to go through all those things without harming herself. Unlike me, she's really strong. She was able to face her problems.

I would really pray to God to help her with what she's going through. I hope that her problems would be fixed...

Sunday, November 25, 2007
Blah

I loved the homily a while ago. I dunno, it was so...enlightening. Anyway, it was about Jesus being there for us no matter what. The priest said,

"No matter how many times we fall Jesus Christ always extends a hand to help us back up."

It's not the exact thing but the idea is the same.

I went to church with our maid today. My brother didn't come with me, I dunno why. I got mad by that cause he's too lazy to go to church and I don't believe those DAMN excuses he makes cause I know that he's just making it up. I really got mad and said to him that,

"Bakit ayaw mo magsimba?! Ano yun? pagpapalit mo yung simba sa laro?!"

He's really annoying. I got really angry that I feel like I want to cry. I mean, how can he exchange going to church for a damn computer game? It's not like the mass is going to last for hours! Can't he stay away from that damn game for an hour?! DAMN! DAMN! DAMN HIM!

Sorry for the words, I just need to let it out so that I won't hurt myself...

I hate you.

Long Week

The Academic Week is finally over. The results were okay. I'm just happy that all the pressure from the activities there are gone. It's time to relax now.

Not.

Yeah, even though the long tiring week is over, we still have one more thing to worry about, our Play. Sure we've practiced and practiced but it's still crappy since we haven't tried having a dry run. It's quite depressing if you ask me.

Anyway, yesterday was the battle of the bands. It wasn't a blast because there were only 3 bands who were able to play since the mic and the amp were busted. So what else can we do but go home right?

Gah.

Anyway, I talked to my mom today. she showed me some stuffs she's going to bring on Dec. 11. I'm already excited, 2 more weeks. I really miss her.

Well, that's all. Later.

Monday, November 19, 2007
ACADEMIC WEEK

Yeah, Our annual academic week has started today. The opening was okay, it was not that grand and not that crappy. Today wasn't very exciting cause we had no contest yet except for the Video Presentation for our ZL2. We only sat for who knows how long in the auditorium to watch the presentations of the 1st-3rd years. Sad to say, we weren't able to watch the video of the 4th year. :(

Anyway, I'm kind of excited for tomorrow cause I'm part of the "hoard/mob" in the contest, Against the Hoard, which is like the game show, 1 vs. 100. Lol, I hope that I would be able to at least reach question 5. XD




I feel sad when I hear that song. darn. I don't wanna let go yet. T_______________T


how can we say goodbye to someone we never had? how can we forget something that never started? how can we move on from something we never did?how can we love someone we never met? Most importantly...how can we stop? T_________T

Thursday, November 15, 2007
Day 3 & 4

Tuesday, November 13, 2007
8 Days of Reflection

Okay, this is actually part of school stuff that I am doing right now. It's like an everyday Journal on why I stick to my religion. It's actually for CCF class and it's counted as a quiz but as I was doing it/writing it, I kind of thought, hey, why not share it to everyone so that people would also see how beautiful my religion is? So, here goes.

Note: The following post starting today would focus on my 8 days of journey exploring the greatness of my religion. I'm not forcing anyone or encouraging anyone to change sides but I just want to point out how great Catholicism is.

(I wasn't able to post yesterday about my post so here it is.)

November 12 2007

Why do I stick to my religion? (Christian)

Infinite Possibilities

In our lives, we tend to get disappointed whenever our prayers are not answered. We start to fall into the wrong path whenever we think that God did not care for us because he wasn’t able to grant our wish. But we must put it in our minds that God is neither a magician nor a fairy. He’s not a genie that grants our wish right after we make them. We must remember that God answers our prayers, we just have to look deeper in order for us to see how God answers them.

In my life, there were a lot of times when I felt that I was left alone by God because my prayers were not answered. But I realized day after day that God was with me all the time, I just didn’t open my eyes wide enough to see how he communicated with me and little by little, he was answering my prayers.

I remain to be a Christian not because it’s the religion of my family or my friends but because I see my religion as a wide scope of infinite possibilities; that in my life, I get to experience different things by just believing that God would never leave my side. I stick to my religion cause it gives me a heart warming feeling that I have someone to turn to when I have no one else. I have someone to spill my thoughts to when I don’t have someone to listen.

God is a wonderful father. He nourishes everyone with love by spreading His blessings throughout the world. He treats each and everyone of us equally.

I stick to my religion because I believe that God is always there. I may not see it clearly but I know that He is there, guiding me in every step that I make. Having that feeling of someone is helping you and guiding you in order for you not to fail is wondrous. The thought that we have a supreme being that knows what would happen to our lives and that each and every day, He watches us as we make different steps is what makes me be faithful to my religion.

I stick to my religion because I have someone who never leaves my side.

November 13, 2007

Why stick to my religion?

Challenges

I experience different things each and everyday. Some maybe good, some are bad. Good things and bad things happen for a reason. God knows best and He knows what’s good for us.

He gives us good things not for us to brag about it but for us to share it with one another. He gives us challenges not for us to fall down on our knees and weaken us but to strengthen us and make us become a better person. If you look at it in a different point of view, we notice that we were able to overcome every challenge in our life. We were able to accomplish the things we have to do because God never gives us challenges or problems we cannot solve.

Truthfully, I wasn’t very religious before. My faith wasn’t strong enough that if I hadn’t changed, I wouldn’t be able to answer the question on why I stick to my religion. I was weak before that I was easily encouraged by other things that would make me turn away from my religion. But I changed.

Sometimes, it takes a life moving experience to open our eyes to see how great our faith in something is.

My Catholic faith helps me to see things in a different perspective. Somehow, I see things in a new light and I understand things more. Whenever I get experiences wherein I feel so frustrated, I think that God didn’t give this challenge to give me a hard time, HE gave it to me to help me become better.

I stick to my religion because I am able to face every challenge in my life with the help of God. With Him, I am able to accomplish and overcome every struggle that I have. Whenever I get the feeling of loneliness, just the thought of God makes me contented; just the thought of Him I am able to overcome the obstacles in my life.

I stick to my religion because I have someone who helps me become a better person.

Sunday, November 11, 2007
Hug and Balloons

Cute music videos from my favorite, DBSK! The first one is Hug. They look so...er I dunno, PURE(LOL)? in that video. They look so cute. ^_____^ Enjoy!




and the second video is Balloons. They're so adorable in this one especially Jae Joong my husband! ^______^

Saturday, November 10, 2007
DBSK & Basketball---what they have in common

DBSK is a quintet Korean boy band formed by SM Entertainment which made its debut in Korea at 2004. Its 5 members specialize in the areas of singing, dance, a cappella, acting, and pop with an R&B vibe. Since debut, the group gained popularity quickly in South Korea, Japan, China, Taiwan and other East Asian countries. (wiki)

Basketball is a team sport in which two teams of five active players each try to score points against one another by throwing a ball through a 10 foot (3 m) high hoop (the goal) under organized rules. Basketball is one of the most popular and widely viewed sports in the world. (wiki)

What do these two have in common?

Well here's what...I both love them.

I've been playing basketball ever since I was in gradeschool. I loved the sport more than any other cause it builds unity among it's team members and the game is exciting. The feeling that you get whenever you can shoot the ball is amazing. For me, basketball makes me energized and active.

I know I can't brag about DBSK being my favorite cause I only started liking them recently. But I can only say that I really appreciate this group cause their songs are really nice ( even though I don't understand them...YET!), the beats and their voices are marvelous! They have awesome moves that goes with their awesome voices. They're really talented that's for sure.

I love the two right now cause I really enjoy it when I'm able to play ball and I also enjoy hearing the songs of DBSK.

Thursday, November 8, 2007
Bloggers, meet Dong Bang Shin Ki

Lol. Okay, this post is totally dedicated to the Korean boyband DBSK or Dong Bang Shin Ki. Okay, first, who's DBSK?

I don't know much about DBSK cause I'm only starting to get addicted to them. Well, all I know is that they sing well, dance well and act well. They have 3 albums already (which I'm on the process of downloading right now) and mini dramas which is available in crunchyroll.

[Warning]: this part was not written by me. It's from http://www.kpopmusic.co.uk/tvxq_dbsk.html. okay?

Who are TVXQ (Dong Bang Shin Ki, DBSK) from Korea?

The meaning of "Dong Bang Shin Ki" or "Tong Vfang Xien Qi" is "Gods Rising from the East". They consist of a five-member dance team is made up of high school students who auditioned for stardom. Each member of Dong Bang Shin Ki (DBSK) has proved his talent in singing as well as dancing. Thus, the mould of the korean boy band was formed.

The Dong Bang Shin Ki (DBSK) boys were put in different groups among peers during their training to be selected for the band, which was already named Dong Bang Shin Ki (DBSK) / Tong Vfang Xien Qi.

The first to join Dong Bang Shin Ki (DBSK) was Kim JunSu (김준수) who was 12 at that time; he was brought into the program through a TV show looking for a new talent. He continued to train for six more years and debuted under the name of Xiah Junsu (시아준수; Xiah is pronounced SHe-AH in Korean).

The next TVXQ (Dong Bang Shin Ki, DBSK) member to join, Jung YunHo (정윤호), won his audition through a dance competition. However, he was no amateur--he had been a backup dancer and rapper for K-pop singer Dana. His chosen stage name is U-know YunHo (유노윤호; because when you say YunHo real fast, it sounds like U-know in English).

Kim JaeJoong(김재중), like Tamaki Nami (a Japanese pop singer), left his hometown to audition for SM Entertainment and debut under the name a fortune teller foretold years before: YoungWoong JaeJoong (영웅재중). He is also known as Hero, the meaning YoungWoong (영웅).

Shim ChangMin (심창민), was one of the youngest to audition; nevertheless, he passed the try-outs. He joined the band on the name of ChoiKang ChangMin (최강창민; the English counterpart to his stage name is Max).

Six months prior to the Dong Bang Shin Ki (DBSK)'s debut, a new member was added. American Park YooChun (박유천) changed his name to Micky YooChun (믹키유천). Originally, YooChun's English name was Micky, so he chose his English name to be part of his stage name.

For prep work, TVXQ (Dong Bang Shin Ki, DBSK) recorded a single with The TRAX and BoA. BoA, already popular in Japan, and The Trax, which had released new music in Japan, made an awareness overseas about the new boy group.

Tong Vfang Xien Qi TVXQ (Dong Bang Shin Ki, DBSK) has also released albums and singles in China. SM Entertainment has thought of adding a Chinese member to their group to help their popularity within the country. The management company had additionally thought of splitting Tong Vfang Xien Qi into two groups: one three-member group (U-Know, Micky, Xiah) to perform in South Korea and the other two (Hero, Max) with the new Chinese member to perform in China. The news of the addition of a new Chinese member/splitting the group is upsetting to the fans of Tong Vfang Xien Qi, Cassiopeia. The fans claim the musical group would only be itself with the five original members. Although this rotation was a problem in their first album, SM Entertainment did not rotate then; however, the problem had rosen again. However, now, SM Entertainment has abandoned the idea of rotating a Chinese member in Tong Vfang Xien Qi because of the overflowing amount of complaints from Cassiopeia and other fans.

On the other hand, since TVXQ (Dong Bang Shin Ki, DBSK) Tong Vfang Xien Qi is very successful Korea, this boy-band's music has been shipped out to several countries in Asia.

In Korea, Tong Vfang Xien Qi TVXQ (Dong Bang Shin Ki, DBSK) has released two albums (Tri-Angle, 2004; Rising Sun, 2005) and a Christmas album (The Christmas Gift From TVXQ, 2004). The group has also released a project album with all singers from SM Entertaiment under the name SM Town (Summer Vacation 2004), and three single albums (Hug, 2004; The Way U Are, 2004; Hi Ya Ya 여름날, 2005).

Wednesday, November 7, 2007
Banana

I don't know what to put in the title so I just placed the first thing that came into my mind. Lol. Quite a mind eh?

Anyway, ever since Yesterday in Kat's place I have been finding this certain IQ test that Yanna showed me. Well, It's quite fun cause you really have to think in order for you to come up with an answer. It's really challenging and mind bleeding. lol.

Try if yourself (there are 4 links, one for each part :) ):

part 1
part 2
part 3
part 4

The test is really fun so I suggest you guys try it. I've been trying to answer it for quite a while now. It's really hard heheh.

Anyway, nothing much happened today. Well, we had our speech today in Fili. I volunteered and then I forgot my speech. Lol. I wasn't able to finish it but it's okay with me. Well, technically, it's not okay since...well...I really memorized it for a long time but on the other hand, I tried to view it on another POV and just said to myself, "Hey, it's not the end of the world. Toughen up!". Anyawy, I'll just do better in recitation and other activities. That's a promise.

I'm quite happy these past few days since I'm reciting more and I'm kind of listening more to the lessons in class. Can you imagine that I was able to really understand our first topic about Circles in Geom? Lol. It's quite an achievement for me already.

Our play's okay now...I think. The actors are really good but we still have to memorize lines and do blockings and stuff. P.E. a while ago was fun cause we had 20-25 minutes of free time? lol, we played ball.

Anyway, the subject that I enjoy the most these past few days is English. I mean, I LOVE ENGLISH! well, I love it because our teacher is really good. I admire her for it. She's like the Morrie (from tuesdays with morrie) of the Modern times. Lol. She's really good and teaches good values. I really learn a lot from her. She's my idol :)

P.S.

Marriage is the justification of love
- my idol, our english teacher =)

Saturday, November 3, 2007
For one more day >___________<

Gah. The sem break is coming to an end. School is back. It'll be another season for countless assignments and projects. Darn, I don't want to wake up yet from my fantasy and face reality. Reality bites, seriously. X________X.

We went to Cavite a while ago to practice our play. It went well, I guess. We were able to practice a lot of scenes already and I could actually see some progress.

Oh who am I kidding? We still need a lot of time for it! >_______<. I mean, I can't blame my classmates for it cause...well, we're all afraid of the expectations from our teacher. Remember, he's mad at us. T_______T. WE can't concentrate really well cause our fear is taking over us.

Anyway, after accomplishing the task for the day, we played truth or dare. Lol, it was fun. WE made our classmate dance in front of us and another one do the cartwheel. Now that's what I call brave. LOL.

Anyway, we got bored and we stopped playing. People started to do different stuff like dance and do stunts and we just watched them. They were so cool, but one of them was the coolest cause he could do cartwheel then backflip one after another. It was amazing.

I had a talk with my friend after that. She's really troubled since she doesn't know what to do with her BFFs anymore. They're on a fight you see...Anyway, we had this conversation which really...I dunno, struck me?

She said: "I've tried everything and yet it's like nothing's happening" :(
I said: "You shouldn't worry about it much anymore. You did your part already anyway."
She said: "but I'm not contented with just that."
I said: "..."
She said: "You know you're really lucky that your group aren't fighting."

Okay, so I was like...yeah...maybe we were lucky. But I didn't say it to her though.

>_________< I just hope they could sort it out already.

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